..running from you is what my best defense is..

sometimes [lately] feeling like she's just not good enough [not smart or funny or clever or pretty or entertaining enough] for him, her husband her lover her future...

{so it's up to her to be her own love/make her own future}



"When I got tired of running from you
I stopped right there to catch my breath
There your words they caught my ears
You said, 'I miss you son; come home,'
And my sins, they watched me leave
And in my heart I so believed
The love you felt for me was more than
The love I'd wished for all this time
And when the doors were closed

I heard no I-told-so's

I said the words I knew you knew

Oh God, Oh God I needed you

God all this time I needed you

I needed you

And I so hate consequences

And running from you is what my best defense is

I hate these consequences

Because I know that I let you down

Now I don't wanna deal with that..."